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The month of May has been pretty shitty for me. School has taken over my life, who knew college would be sooo sucky. Too many papers to write about crap that I have no interest in. Trying to bullshit enough words to fill up pages that later need to printed and handed in class where I don’t want to be. Getting a note on my paper saying I made every mistake a person can make on my essay on God.
I wake up every morning at 5:50 am to my barking dog that needs to be walked so I won’t have to clean his piss. Then the dread of getting dress and putting on makeup. Making myself look nice for people I don’t like to admire. The places that I think people won’t notice me is where they do. As I stuff myself with pizza, a man comes up to me and tell me I’m beautiful. With my mouth full of pizza I say thank you. At least he was nicer than the one before at the other pizza shop.
Boys, boys, boys I’m still bitter from before. I don’t know why. It was soo long ago. I should be on to new guys that want my attention, but I don’t find it fair that I have to give it. I watch my friend and new spring couples enjoying each other company. They pop up like flowers in the spring. I want it, but I’m sick of just settling for what I find. I want to be with someone that I actually like and shares the same interests as me. I’m sick of guys just wanting to be with me because of my face or whatever they find attractive.
I am a contradiction. I enjoy snoozing and watching makeup tutorials on youtube. One of my many aspirations is to do nothing. This is my blog. Enjoy my stupidity.
